A Friend...

     I was sitting on the 39 Bus, on Broad and Sesquehana, and in the seat in front of me was the prettiest glasses-wearing young girl I had ever seen at that point (the standards by which I judge are different). She had slim-lined eyes and a wide smile, and she exuberated confidence and playfulness.
      I wanted to know her, so I had to say something. I was trembling in fear...so after pumping myself up for it, I simply said: "You're cute..." and as her appearance and demeanor showed, she spun around confidently and said: "What did you say?" with a slight smirk. I cowared and said "Hunh? nothing?" and she said "oh, I thought you had said something..." then turned back around. I looked at the back of her head, in sheer awe, for the rest of the ride.
     I passed my stop at 26th and york, having stayed on trying to see where she would get off; and fortunately for me, she got off at the next stop. 27th Street, and headed towards Cumberland street. I could have shouted in Joy, as she was in my neighborhood. I knew I would see her again.
      It was the following summer and one day, a guy whom I once held close and dear to me, came around the block, Dakota Street. He had told me the day before that he had a friend that he wanted me to meet; and that I would like her. I raised him up, so my opinion about his friends meant something to him. I watched as he came down the street, and their was a female with him. I couldn't see her face but she had a very atheletic body. The Sun was behind them so the outline of her shape was glowing with the rays of the sun. It was like she was an angel illluminated with the Glory of Heaven.
     As she got close enough to see me, I saw her, and when we locked eyes, we simultaneously made the faacial expression of shock, surprise, and happiness all at the same time. She recognized me, and I definitely recognized her. It was she, the pretty young lady from the bus the summer before; only now she was older, and absolutely Beautiful; and I was now about to learn her name....Briana Monique Daniel, from Barbados!
   
May the peace and Blessings of God be upon you my dear friend. As is obvious, I have held firmly onto the memories of our friendship. You have done for me things that no other has. I valued our friendship, and hold you to a very high esteem within me. Only two days after I last saw you, did I lose everything that I worked my whole life for, everything that was my life back then....and I am only months ago just coming out of that trajedy. I had been seeking you the entire time. You are a very good person; and I wanted to say thank you. Good friends are so very hard to come by, and I really appreciate your loyalty to me for all of these years .... nothing like a true good friend.

As Testament to Justified Rage - Segment 1

There is no word to describe how a REAL MAN feels after all of the stereotypes about black men, and how they too often fail as responsible fathers; providers, protectors, defenders, and educators, and to see how when one of the few who is an example of what a man and father is supposed to be, does right by a black woman, after all they deserve and all they have been through in this world, and he is done and disgraced worse than the "deadbeats," and "males" who Sh*t on women every day, and then is spat upon by the INTENTIONAL CORRUPTION of his dignity and legacy, his Children...in that they are never taught of the truth of who he is and what he's about, then are lied to and their perceptions of themselves; the man from whom's loins are they derived; what it is and means to be in and a part of a marriage and family; and the world, are so misrepresented that the children are completely out of touch with reality and genuinely believe -and condemn and dismiss their father who's frantically trying to SAVE THEM by opposing such, and giving them truth- that all that matters in the world are the newest fashion materials, chasing persons of either sex under misguided sexual infactuations, and the blind embrace of all things frivolous and vain, (under the guise of what their mother and her family demonstrate) are correct and legitimate!

So when he gets on them about being too young and too irresponsible to be on these adult social networks, as we see by one of their posts of: "Who wants to Rub my stomach?" when she just turned 14 days ago, he gets from his child the auto-response that's been programmed into their minds...that she "wont be a little girl forever..." as if age justifies behaving like whores or in anyway disgracing the Honor and dignity of their father, and the resentment of him and his plan that existed since they were infants, of not intending for them to grow up in what he recognizes as quarantine Ghettos (containment habitats) -which he has watched ruin multiple generations of young women (these urban concrete jungles [Cities])- like he knows nothing about the "Hood Life" and can't see that there's no future there but to struggle; grow up; get killed and or go to jail; get pregnant young (without a plan and stable relationship); and become some "food-stamp millionaire" welfare queen who wastes her whole life chasing behind some "Nigga" and his empty dreams, or just another "DaShiki" with no self-esteem who settles for being a hood-slutt just for anyone to give her some sort of acknowledgement of her existence! 

Well, this Man fears NOTHING BUT ALLAH, and will DIE before he watches or lets anyone INCLUDING AND ESPECIALLY those who call themselves their "family" continue to lead his bloodline (including "Ke So hollywood") to RUIN and ultimately to the HELLFIRE; regardless of their hiding behind this Institutionally Racist System and society, and it's oppression and suppression of black males. Bear witness as he wages the war for the souls and salvation of his babies. #astestamenttojustifiedrage #newbook2016 

Because It Is Necessary...In These Times...and With These Kids

Because It Is Necessary...In These Times...and With These Kids

Aayyatta R'von Mustafa Ref. to Facebook Video of Nov. 23, 2013:  OMG!!!! I love this mother!!!!!!! Go Head Sister!!!!!! Handle your Business!!!! I swear By His Holy Name Allah Subhana Wa Ta'Allah, that this is exactly how I feel about my Daughter "Ke So Hollywood"! 

If y'all knew and understood what the situation is with me , my daughters, and their ignorant and irresponsible mother, you would see and know exactly how I, like this mother, Feels. These CHILDREN are watching these ADULTS in these movies, shows, and music videos, portraying ideas and lifestyles that they themselves do not really live or even embrace! My daughters have the audacity to challenge me and my position of and on what they are to know, who they are to be associated with, and how they are to live, think, and conduct their lives...as if children are not the dignity and legacy of their father. 

Ke So "Hollywood" needs to watch this video and take major heed; as I, her father am by profession frequent on nearly all social and professional networks, and I'm told that I'm wrong because I tell my 14 year old daughter, Ke So Hollywood, that she's too young, and more, too irresponsible, to be on any of these sites....on here taking breast shots, butt shots, freely associating with any and every boy and man, and concerned with nothing more than looking "cute", being violent savages, and who's dating and screwing who...yet Ke So Hollywood had to go to SUMMER SCHOOL, and so barely made it to high school!!! 

They're trying so hard to stay in Philly with their mother, because they know their father is A MAN, and will not accept the conduct they engage in, while they've learned these things from their mother and those around them in that situation, and because i'm not in their immediate area. My Point then is...support real men and real fathers as we fight and struggle even with those we are trying to save, as we take them back from the detrimental influences of this society, which sexualizes our baby-girls and persecutes our baby-boys, that we may stay in a condition of subjugation and oppression in America and in this world; for we are engaged in a War! for our survival, because we are being exterminated by way of destroying our future generations in their youth, so that our existence can't be perpetuated! Ke So Hollywood thinks unfriending her father will allow her to do whatever she wants...watch the video for when I bring them home!...and Ke So Hollywood says I embarrass her! SMMFH.

Reply to Facebook Post by my Child (Ke So "Hollywood")

You see what I am saying to you!? You say in your Facebook post of 11/19/2013, that you are "feeling loved" because you got a phone. Yet have been completely mindless of all that your father has done AND SACRIFICED for and to make a dignified and respect-deserving life for your and your REAL FAMILY (Your Sisters)! As if he is of no significance. You would prefer to remain living where you are at because you have no stability and structure; no real parental GUIDANCE; no authority. a life based on your appeasement by providing you with a bunch of material gratification, which does nothing to prepare you for the world that you are inheriting! a life that gives you no knowledge of self and kind, no knowledge of situation and history, no knowledge of condition and circumstance! What kind of Man would your father be, to allow you to continue, and even go on in that condition? Especially when he has had your lives planned out since before you were born, while you adopt and try to assert to him, a lifestyle and ideology that is contrary to what has always been, throughout all the (REAL) history of the world; of which which you have no knowledge nor understanding regarding its history and origins; one that we know as Muslims WILL NOT LAST!!!. You place your father in a position to where he must chose between what in your ignorance makes you happy, or what is actually best for you, and will ensure your SURVIVAL from an enemy that you don't even know exists; yet you fight against your father. Who would watch their own seed; flesh & blood go to perdition, and maybe burn!? Guess what?....not yours!!!

My Dearest...on her Birthday.

I was at a dead end in my life; and could see noting but the Cemetery in my future. I was lonely in the world, and yearned for companionship that would never change towards me; according to the "seasons."

While well known in the neighborhood, I did not have the deep connection that made me feel and know I was accepted unconditionally; maybe this being for that I am my father's only child, and never felt completely accepted by my mother's children.

So when I took pity on a crack-head's daughter, and embraced her, then later cleaned her up and became involved with her, and this little girl was born, my whole life had changed. I felt loved, wanted, admired, and needed; and felt like and knew then that I would always have a friend, because I now had a family of my own. This little girl had become my world, and had viewed and loved me as her hero and the best person in the world; in all respects!

Fatherhood has been the best and most fulfilling experience for me. I have come to know the purpose of my life and my place and role in the world. There's nothing more dignifying to me than to be a man, and a provider, protector, defender, and educator of those who will carry on my legacy and my bloodline; and I intend with everything in me, and on my life, to do so, and according to the standards of God; God Willing. 

Therefore, I want to acknowledge the fourteenth year of existence, for the first of mine, and remind her that her conduct and demeanor reflects upon the Honor and Dignity of he who would give his very life, that she may not be corrupted and defiled by those who dwell in ignorance, and live in Peace and in Solice, and that she may be guided rightly and live in honor -her Father. 

Happy 14th Birthday "Ke So hollywood,"  Kyana I. Lee, in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania; and may God protect you wherever in this world you may be ... until I bring you home. From a Father, and his undying love.

                                                                                                     -Dad